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Reality

Real

 women

       have

       curves

             real

              food

            has

          no
calories

     I

reject

      this

everybody

              is

              real

        everything

                       is

                      real

Things I Fear

Loneliness

The thought of being who I used to be again

The dark when I've been reading Creepypastas for too long

That someone I don't much like will get butthurt about not being included in my wedding plans

The possibility of Little Bow Creep not working out

Change

Today...

Will be mostly sponsored by Photoshop

I want to learn to pole dance

Things I hate

Hate itself

Deliberate ignorance

 Estrogen and progesterone 

World Poverty

The red topped tabloids

TERFs

How wearing anything orange makes me look ill

Bullies

drama

when my toaster has a funny turn and decides that all it wants to do is burn things for no reason.

Films with crappy endings

That bad things can happen to good people

Unexpectedly awful beer

Lolita 52 Challenge - Week 41 - Fondest meetup memory

I've not really been to a lot of meets, but I was pretty happy when Lolita/Japan Fashion Newcastle welcomed me with open arms :)

Things I love

Kev of course

My friends and the members of my family who I am not embarrassed to be related to.

Myself, at last.

Stirfry, the cat not the food,though the food is pretty good too

Long walks in overgrown graveyards

Middle Eastern Food

Erika Moen's webcomics

AFI, the band not the American Film Institute

Toast with marmite

Painting

Bustles

being right

Being able to find strong enough suncream

Back Home!

Back home and knackered time to un-pack and re-pack :)

Circles

Other times it feels like I'm going in

circles.

Round and round and round it goes

my

life

on

repeat

There are small circles,like breathing and

eating

of course but then there are bigger circles.

Find

someone,

trust

someone

think that this time.this will be the fairytale friendship

this

time will be different, we will be friends *forever*

and

for

a

while

everything is great, I'm happy,they're happy and then

just

when everything seems at it's best something happens

I

move

away,

she

moves away, she just doesn't call any more, I forget to

write,

we fall out over something silly and I'm to stubborn to say

sorry

she 

moves

away,

she gets involved with druggies, decides she doesn't want 

anything

to do with goths any more, gets married, has a bunch of kids

and

a

divorce

and

forgets all about me, I move away and don't email him as much

as

I should, she scares me and I say something I regret, I move away 

and

don't

email

her

as much as I should, I move away and she deletes her Facebook and 

we

loose touch, she misheard me in a club and got mad at me for something

I

didn't

say,

she

was in love with someone who hates me, we ran into eachother years later 

and

promised to get back in touch but we didn't, I trusted her, called her sister,

stuck

up

for

her

when people tried to bring her down, was there for her when nobody else

was

she betrayed my trust, talked behind my back and eventually told me she

wanted

nothing

to

do

with me any more because of the drama I had managed to get involved in

when

I was trying to protect her. That is a list of ways how every friendship that

was

important

to

me

fizzled out since I was a child, and every time it was the same circle, I felt

safe

and then it crumbled. I don't pick one best friend now, not just because I'm

sick

of

damn

circles

but because I have so many important friends now that I can't just pick one.

I think I broke the circle.

I hope so anyway.

Queenie let me play with her hair :)

We appear to have adopted a cat!

Doomie has arrived in Whitby

You shall go to the ball camper elks!

Boxes

Boxes,boxes, boxes.

Sometimes

I feel like I am trapped in a box

like a mime

because the box has no sides

every time

I am in the box I want to be out 

because

it's not nice to feel like you're

trapped

in a box. Sometimes I manage to

escape

the box, but you know the silly thing?

Outside

of the box feels just as claustrophobic as

inside

and so I want to be back in the box

because

even though I feel trapped, I also feel

safe.

I'm glad I don't have to deal with the boxes so much any more. I still feel like that now and again but there are months and months between those feelings now,maybe soon it will be years?

Eyeball

The best way to lose weight is
to only eat things you don't like.
I'm currently on an eyeball diet.

It's not mine I just spent the day looking at it.

The car in front has nipples!

Off to Whitby

To see the Vampires, posting might be sporadic until Monday, then it'll make sense for a few days before I head back to Whitby for Goth Weekend!

Vampire Stock

I almost forgot to mention

I did a Vampire theme stock set

The whole set, plus my stock rules are available on my deviant art page :)

That awesome moment when you discover that tiny graveyard you keep passing

Is actually a massive, overgrown cemetery!

Heelless Boots LEVEL UP!!!

So remember my heel less boots?

They have wings now!

UPGRADE!

Shoes wings from the fabulous Forever in Black

So This is where I will be spending next Saturday

and it will be GLORIOUS!

There's assorted news on the night here, £4 entry if you're just there for the club night, or you can get in free with a DV8 Saturday ticket (priced at £10 but you also get to see Miles and Erica of The Wonderstuff supported by Simon York).

Marc Jacobs is toes amazeballs

When did Marc Jacobs start designing clothes I'd actually want to wear?

Seriously where did this spring forth from, and can there be more? I mean I know I don't stand a snowball's chance in hell of being able to buy any of it any time soon but I just like looking.

Those jackets...So pretty!

Not keen on the shorts or the really loud prints in the middle,but the dresses?

UNF

Gimmiegimmiegimme.

And then there's this.

His last show for Vuitton. I usually dislike Vuitton, what is going on?

Is painting something black really all I need to like it?

Am I really that shallow?

I fucking love this collection.

Lolita 52 Challenge - Week 40 - 5 inspirational fictional characters

I have no idea how this relates to Lolita because I'm not going to pick Alice Liddell (who was a real person by the way, she just didn't visit wonderland)

Eowyn

That awkward moment when I'm fairly sure J.R.R. Tolkien turned me into a Feminist o.0

Lyra Silvertongue

I identified a lot with her... Also I want a Daemon!

Brienne of Tarth

I identify with Brienne a little bit in ways too.

Dr Maxine Myers

I admit it, she's saved my neck so many times and now I have developed an audio based crush on her.

Merida

Brave is the Disney Princess movie that I needed as a kid but didn't happen then.

Doomie at Scream-con

I meant to add these last week but never found a chance.

I ran into Katz, who I went to uni with, which was awesome because I haven't seen her in yonks :) (also  I know you're reading so hiiiii *waves*

How cool is this lady's daenerus cosplay?

I didn't get any more photos because it was so busy.

Lolita 52 Challenge - Week 39 - Most versatile Lolita item I own

Oooooooooold picture

My bonnet!

I'm a few weeks behind

on this again

I'm sorry, will catch up.

The Vampire Rabbit

Above a door in Newcastle is a rabbit with fangs.

Nobody knows why it's there.

It just always has been as long as anybody remembers.

Long before

Monty Python

Twilight

Wallace

or

Gromit

Just there peering over the door at passers by.

A few days back I got to play with this beauty

It's still in good working order, just needs the belt changing